Much More to Come!
"I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears"
Many days passed and I have not posted a single word. With the news on TV, websites, and blogsphere, everything indicates the coming of a civil war. It is not easy to believe the media; they can make a mountain out of a grain. Nevertheless, this time it seems true. Shrines have been bombed. Mosques have been attacked. How can all this happen under the "ruling" of a government that claims it includes wise men both politicians and religious. Not forgetting that this country is under occupation that some allege, "They are here to uphold our so-called liberation".
Many days passed, each time I try to write I come up with mad, bloody and furious words that I cannot put together to express my feelings. I was not there. I did not hear a bomb or a single bullet. I am away from my beloved country. The country I wish I can go back to and pray for every night before I sleep. Feeling guilty, not knowing why. Is it because I am safe and they are not? Is it because I do not need to worry there will be a bomb on my way back home? Alternatively, the reason could be that everybody I know back home envy me for having a peaceful life and praise me that I planned well to get myself out of Iraq before it is too late?.
It did not take a minute to know that every thing was planned earlier. Under the curfew, how could anyone act with such high-speed? The shrine was bombed, curfew, next thing you know the mosques are being attacked!
Sighs and pain paralyze my pen. Words are gone.
I try to make sure that every one I know is fine and still alive. I pray for their safety. My usual prayers were "Oh dear God, keep those whom I love and those who love me safe. Keep those whom I know and those who know me safe. Pleas God; keep my relatives, friends and neighbors safe."
I cannot believe how selfish I was to say these prayers. What about the rest? Don't they have families, friends and neighbors?
Today I pray: "Dear God, keep Iraq and Iraqis united and safe"